Round 5 is done. It has left me with severe fatigue and prickly neuropathy in my hands and feet. Hopefully it subsides in a couple of days. Anything below body temp sets it off...winter is going to suck!
I have slept 16-20 hrs a day for the last 3 days. It's getting old. I feel useless, not being able to do the smallest task without being winded. I really want to do something productive, just to say I did it, but can't. Too tired.
I've said before that Fall is my favorite time of year. I do love it, but anything that triggers any kind of pleasant memory tends to turn into a sobfest right now. It's too easy to look back at a time before cancer, and wish, so hard, that those carefree days were here again.
So, I have to just keep looking forward.
I need to focus on the good things that are happening with my recovery...no evidence of disease, good blood counts, one more round for the record books.
We will get there...
Lots more good memories to come and when they get here, you will look back at the Fall that you spent beating cancer and enjoy your time even more. This too shall pass. One minute at a time...and you might as well spend it sleeping. When you get better we'll figure out a way to celebrate what you've overcome. Hey...maybe we'll jump out of a plane together or something :) Love you, S.
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