It's been a tough stretch. After the pump was disconnected, I had a battle with nausea. My mouth was very sensitive to cold, so I could only drink room temperature liquids. My hair started to thin out. Now I am left with extreme fatigue. I just can't seem to get enough sleep.
Chemo sucks. There's no way around the "sucks" part.
I keep thinking of a time, years ago, when my first car would break down. I found myself, sitting in the driver's seat, watching all the working cars go zipping by. I envied everyone who had a working car, hated my car because it let me down, and wanted the broken thing fixed NOW.
Then it was a car. Now, it's my body.
Now, it goes like this: I
Yep, I'm on the pity pot.
Today is round 2 of 12. I am hoping they will be able to tweak some things to lessen my side effects. I already know they are going to give me a much stronger anti-nausea med in my IV. It's possible that they will be slowing the administration of the first med from two hours to four. I've read that this is extremely effective in eliminating a lot of the stranger side effects (mouth sensitivity, etc.). My case manager is also encouraging me to request IV hydration after the treatment. Staying adequately hydrated is extremely important, and was quite the battle after the pump came off. Not sure if the fluids would be administered after the infusion today, or after the pump comes off on Saturday. We will see.
I have received a lot of nice cards and phone calls in the last couple of weeks. Thank you to all of you who are in the bleachers, cheering me on. This last stretch has caused me to doubt myself many, many times. It's just the beginning of the marathon. I hope it's just a matter of "hitting the wall" and pushing past it. You guys keep me fighting.
Wow.. I have the same exact feelings.. nausea and fatigue after the pump comes off.. hair falling out, cold sensitivity.. its the pits! I keep telling myself each treatment I get done with is one less to go!
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